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Focus on People's Strengths

11/29/2012

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It was the turn of my son-in-law, Andrew, to state few things he was thankful for as we worked our way around the Thanksgiving dinner table with turkey and all the trimmings.

“I’m thankful for Carolyn (his six-year-old daughter) and how she is really good at math.  I’m thankful for Angela (four years old) and how she is always so helpful to everyone without being asked.”

When it was our daughter Jannie’s turn, she talked about additional great traits of our wonderful granddaughters. 

I was touched!  What great parents to recognize the individual talents and gifts of their children, and to express them in a way that builds their self-esteem and confidence.

I was left wondering if they had heard a couple of the same speeches I had over the last few weeks.  They said they had not—which left me feeling that great parenting just came naturally to them.

Terri Flint, employee assistance director at a major hospital chain, spoke a few weeks ago at the annual NAMI Utah state convention about how the worst bosses ignore their subordinates, the “next-to-worst” ones criticize them, and the best help them recognize their strengths and empowers them to use those strengths for the benefit of the organization.

A few weeks before that, Henry Eyring, a religious leader spoke of how parents and other leaders should help youth recognize their God-given gifts with which they were born.

I had great parents, but during my difficult teen years, I felt that they were continually criticizing me.  My dad told me once he thought that I’d make a good house painter for a career.  That’s what I did for summer jobs as a teen.  I have great respect for house painters, but that was very far from my career aspirations.  I felt that he didn’t see my talents and strength.  He didn’t take the time to know me.  Looking back, I think this contributed to my issues with depression and low self-esteem that I battled much of my life.  Perhaps that’s why I was impressed by what I’ve heard and seen the last few weeks.

Looking for the gifts and strengths of others and helping them see them is important in all of our endeavors.  This builds individuals and it builds organizations.


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We All Have Major Disabilities to Wrestle

8/9/2011

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A championship wrestler with only one leg?  My eyes studied the photo of three-time All American athlete Anthony Robles, standing in his Arizona State yellow and red wrestling uniform. His massive right arm was being raised in victory by a striped-shirt-clad referee.  “Wow,” I said to myself, “I wrestled on my high school team, and I didn’t look anything like that or accomplish any of the feats he had.”  I was in awe of his determination and grit.

I glanced out the window again of the Southwest Airlines Boeing 737 aircraft at 30,000 feet.  I was trying to relax while thumbing through the airline’s in-flight magazine that had this photo of Anthony.  My wife Becky and I were on our way to stay with our son and his family in Southern California.  I had a four-day convention to attend in Anaheim.  During those days, Becky would visit with our son, his lovely wife, and our 11-month-old grandson.

At the convention, I was surprised that one of the keynote speakers was another wrestler with a disability—except he wasn’t missing just one leg; he was missing four limbs.  Kyle Maynard was born with short stubs for arms and legs.  For his speech, he rolled onto the stage in a wheelchair (No battery-operated motorized wheelchair for him!), let himself down on the floor, crawled on the floor with four stub limbs, and finally climbed up and sat on a regular chair to deliver his speech.

He spoke of how his parents taught him that he could do anything.  He believed them.  He was determined that he would not be defined by his disability.   He would not feel or think like a victim.  He said to himself, “I'm not going to allow other people to decide what I am capable of."

He wanted to be a wrester and began when he was eleven.  For his first year and a half, he did not win a match.  His parents wouldn’t allow him to quit.  He lifted weights, conditioned himself, and studied technique.  He went on to be ranked in the top twelve high school wrestlers in the country. 

I was immensely taken back by him.  After his speech, I stood in a line in an adjacent hallway of the large meeting room to personally meet him.  As I waited, I noticed that between meeting people, he was balancing back on two wheels in his wheelchair.  Perhaps this was a nervous habit kind of like how I bite my fingernails. 

Someone asked him to sign a book.  How could he do that?  He had no fingers?  He pressed a pen between the ends of his two stub arms and scribbled a note and his signature as smoothly and gracefully as I’ve seen anyone.  When it was my one-on-one turn, I told him how much I appreciated his message.  I asked for a photo with him, and he willingly agreed. 

Since returning with Becky back to our home in the Salt Lake Valley, I’ve thought a lot about my experience with Kyle.  Being a former wrestler, I had to see one of his matches.  One was posted on YouTube.  He really had been a successful wrestler!

I thought about the lessons I learned.  Determination, never quitting, and always resisting the feeling that I am a victim were a few.  I thought a lot about how Kyle described his interactions with his parents.  Their positive influence on him was very profound.  They’ve had a huge impact on his self-esteem and determination.  Despite his disability, they believed he could do just about anything.

I view my situation growing up as quite different from Kyle’s.  My father and my stepmother (my mother died when I was ten) were good people who accomplished a lot to make the world a better place.  They set wonderful examples for me of integrity and goodness.  My father occasionally expressed to all my siblings at the dinner table how proud he was of us. 

However, in my one-on-one interactions with my father and second mother, I felt like they often subtly put me down and questioned my abilities and potential.  When I did something wrong, my father waved his finger at me and made me feel that I did wrong because I was a bad person.  My stepmother kicked me and made belittling comments to me. 

After watching me pitch my first Little League baseball game, my father commented on how my throws were too predictable and not varied enough.  No encouragement; just criticism.  I was disheartened and, as I recall, never pitched another game that year.

Later, he once told me that he thought I’d make a good house painter for a career—the only job I recall that he ever suggested I consider pursuing.  Now, I have great admiration for house painters—I worked summers during junior high and high school for two of them whom I greatly admire.  However, all my older siblings had attended college, and those were always my desires.  I felt that my dad was questioning my intellect. 

Later, I read a transcript where he once told an interviewer about me when I was in my thirties, “Now our son Owen is not creative.”  He said that I had an “engineering/accounting type mind,” that I was an introvert, and that I was well fitted in my profession, that I had done “extremely well” in.

While I appreciate that he acknowledged that I had done well in my career, I question why he said I was not creative.  It seems that he was pigeonholing me rather than say something like I could do anything I set my mind to.

I feel that the words and influence of my father and second mother majorly contributor to my issues with low self-esteem.  Over several years, my psychotherapist repeatedly focused on my relationship with my parents, and tried to persuade me to not believe the many negative messages I felt.  My major breakthroughs seemed to come when I was able to do this.

Now, why am I relating these ruminations about my parents?  Am I feeling like a victim?  Am I feeling sorry for myself, and want others to feel sorry for me, too?  I think not.   I want to make a couple of points.

First, parents have an extremely big impact on the self-esteem of their children, and it’s important for them to realize this and take their responsibility very seriously.  Kyle Maynard’s parents are a great and positive example of this.

I don’t believe I did that well in this area with my own children when they were young.  As now I feel more enlightened, I’m trying to make up for my past mistakes.  Fortunately, Becky is a much better parent, and my children have benefited.

Second, every one of us has at least one major disability we must deal with, though none may be as severe and apparent as Kyle’s.  However, it can be just as challenging. 

One of mine has been low self-esteem.  Whenever I’ve met people, I’ve thought of them as being way up there and me being way down here beneath everyone else.  I questioned all of my abilities.  This defect in my personality has negatively impacted just about every aspect of my life.  It’s had a bearing on my relationships with my family and others, and my ability to succeed in my career. 

I’ve long sought to overcome this impairment.   I spent years in psychotherapy and spent thousands of dollars.  After each session, I carefully made notes about the conversations and what I learned.  I reviewed these notes thereafter.  I spent a significant amount of time thinking about my issues and how I was addressing them.  I read, studied, and analyzed many books about my mental illness issues.

Like Anthony and Kyle, I feel that I have made significant progress in dealing with my disability.  I feel much more self-assured and confident than I used to.  My wife and children tell me how much I’ve changed.  They say I’m more enjoyable to be around.  They say they feel much closer to me now.  Concerning my career, I’m doing something different than I have ever done that I really enjoy.   With this new career I believe I’m having a significant impact on the lives of others—which is extremely important to me.  Generally I feel better and am much happier and more content with life.

I’ll never forget Kyle’s assertion:  “I am not going to allow other people to decide what I am capable of.”  It’s also important that we view our past struggles as learning opportunities.  We must avoid bitterness and self pity like a plague.  Overcoming disabilities and obstacles make us stronger and better people than we would have been without them.

If there were a wrestling mat and referee for battles with low self-esteem, I feel that my hand would also be raised in triumph!

 

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Treat Depression to be a Better Father

3/25/2011

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I was aroused by Jaxon, our four-year-old grandson, saying, “Grandpa, Cooper made a mess!”  I immediately sat straight-up from our family room sofa to see that 22 month-old Cooper had gotten into the nearby fireplace and spread ashes and charcoal onto our carpet—our brand new beige carpet laid just a month before!  The ashes covered about a three-foot-square area.

About 30 minutes before, the three of us began watching a Disney movie to help induce their afternoon naps.  I was tending them for just a few hours while our daughter—their mother—went to a lunch appointment with a friend.  Obviously, I was the only one to fall asleep.

My first instinctive reaction was to grab Cooper and somehow teach him a lesson.  But then reason took hold of me, and I began to laugh.  Cooper was too young to have any comprehension of what he had done.  He was just playing innocently.  Grandparents don’t have to punish anyway; they get to leave that to parents.  The vacuum sucked up nearly all of the black stuff leaving only a couple of small light gray marks that certainly could be easily washed up.

This incident reminding me of a newspaper article I read.  It stated that a recent survey showed that about 40 percent of depressed fathers spanked their one-year-old children compared to only about 13 percent who were not depressed.  The article went on to say that many child development experts warn that spanking children may be harmful at any age, but spanking one-year-olds is especially troubling as they are unlikely to understand the connection between their behavior and the punishment.[i]

Now some may question the motivations and validity of a study such as the one cited.  But I think it makes sense that individuals who are not feeling well—especially about themselves—tend to be less in control about how they treat others including or even especially their children.  I feel that within myself at times.  Nevertheless, it seems to me that the survey results are yet another reason why it’s important for people—and especially fathers of young children—to be aware if they experience depression, and to take steps to combat it.  Depression not only reduces the quality of life of individuals who suffer from it, but it may also impact the quality of their parenting.

Reading this newspaper article reminded me of my journey related to disciplining.  Occasionally my father spanked me, and I followed that pattern with our children.  However, about fifteen years ago I heard a speech by a respected religious leader who discouraged this practice.  I determined at that point that I would no longer discipline our children this way.  Spanking may work well for other parents and their children, but I concluded that for me and my children it wasn’t the best alternative.

The other day I was reminiscing with our youngest daughter about my change.  She said she remembers receiving her last spank from me when she was six years old.  I was amazed and taken back that she would remember!   I checked the internet for the date of the speech.  It was in October 1994, and sure enough, this daughter’s sixth birthday was about that time.

It’s also interesting that just a few years before that point in time was when I began psychotherapy.  Back then I was not aware that I suffered from episodes of depression.  That realization came a little later.  Other issues had pushed me into counseling sessions.  Nevertheless, I wonder if I had not begun those treatments, which certainly already had had a positive impact on my mental health, if the speech would have had the same impact on me.   Would I have changed my methods of disciplining our children when they were young?

While I may not be able to answer these questions, I do know that becoming aware of and being treated for depression has helped me to be a better father—and grandfather.  Just ask our children—and in a few years when he becomes more aware of things— our dear innocent grandson Cooper.



[i] “Sad dads are more likely to spank tots,” Deseret News, March 13, 2011,


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